Good bye Malaysia :(

Morning peeps ! today will be my last day in Malaysia, hukhukk, sedihh lah pulak enn, and after this, new journey will begin. after all, selama 2 bulan kt Malaysia tkde lah teruk or best sgt. just so sooo. hai ape aku merepek nihh ? hmmm acah2 b4 nih nak buat journal saat akhir kunun, haha tp 1 hape pun tk menjadi, cuz too busy too update, pg sana sini, chehhh very the busy lah ! :D btw, my flight will be at 3.30 PM. so wish me luck guys. for a mean time, mybe akan jarang online kot, cuz busy study lah kate kan, n tomorow class will be starting, omygod ! -.- frankly speak, not so ready actually, but wht to do, life must go on n berkorban apa saje demi ilmu :) haha okay cut the crap ! got to go fellas, belum mandi ! haha. so catch u up later, n the next update will be coming ur way, insyaAllah. Goodbye Malaysia :(

Saat-saat akhir Part 1

Morning ! :) so, td malam dah berazam nk pg joging pg2 nih n u knw wht ? i did it ! hehe walaupun tk berlari, tp atleast i've been walking like mybe 1 hour non stop ! cheehh caya lah ! haha alaa stakat nk keluar kan peluh je n nak ambik berkat rezeki pg lah kate kan :) so today's journey is beginnign since i woke up at 7.30 am. keluar rumah dlm pukul 7.45. jalan punya jalan menikmati pg yg indah :) ambik angin, sambil menikmati alam ciptaan Allah ni. huishh tenang2 :D n smpai rumah dlm 8.45 mcm tu n settle kan sikit kerja rumah, mandi, n now dok lah mengadap laptop nii. been thinking to write some journal b4 i leave :) so i got class to attend, will update afta the class finish. stay tuned ! chewahh

12.10 PM : class cancel. tp kena pg class brainwash -.- kena brainwash kaw2. keep repeating the same thing n smpai 1 tahap rse mcm serba salah hidup kt dunia nii. sometimes trfikir jugak, kenapalah aku tk jd air ke, tk jd batu ke, jd bnda yg heartless ke -.- biar semua org suka, biar semua org tk sakit hati with my presence. stress, biol kepala otak, many more :( sungguh ! serba salah aku dibuatnya hidup ni. kesal -.-terasa diri ni mcm tak boleh dipercayai langsung. it's like.........tk tau lah nk buat apa skarang. mcm hari kehancuran dunia je aku nih. mcm tkde life. kenapa aku yg trpilih ???

4.40 PM : just woke up from nap. erghh masih dipanggil nap ke ? tidur dr kul 12.30 tngah hari smpai 4.4o ptg ? hmm tension punya pasal kot. so tlh brfikir untuk keluar, amek angin ptg. pg jalan2 tenang kan fikiran sebelum menunggu masa kena "BOOM" -.- havent had my lunch yet. serba salah nk keluar bilik. serba salah nk turun. cepat lah hari ahad menjelma, biar aman sikit hidup org dlm rumah ni, tk payah kering2 darah fikirkan hal aku sorang je. wait ! b4 keluar, kain belum lipat. settlekan kain dulu lahh. stay tuned :)

7.56 PM : hello ! bertemu kembali. bru habis menyiang ikan di dapur :D so now tk tau nk buat ape, kinda starving -.- tuleeeee, td org ajak makan tk mau, jjual mahal, kan dah jd awang ! -.- tkpe2, cool, mlm2 tk boleh mkn, nnt meletup badan tu karang :O so, got nothing to say actually. having cookies right now, hihi. belum mandi lg nih. sat lg lah.

11.00 PM : well just watched no strings attached :D n dah mandi :) nak kemas2 bilik and nk pack barang sikit. hmm i think today's journey will end here. oh lupa ! the condition is still the same. aku rasa kesal n geram sgt ! but wht to do, i cant do anything -.- feel sad :( i want that jubah so much :( tk tau lah ada rezeki ke tk nk dpt jubah tu cuz wa tngah broke gila nihhhh :( time to sleep i think. today's journey will end here, goodnight ! :)

Kekhilafan Diri

sebak di dada hanya Allah je yang tau. bila tgk-tgk balik old posts, mostly aku update semua cte sedih je. yelah, mostly moment yg aku alami dlm hidup ni kebanyakan sedih je memanjang. baru kejap nii. rse sebak nih membuak buak sgt bila dia perli aku mcm tu... okay fine. i realize that all these while i've been depending on u guys, but, come on, if i have my own money, i never use it for my own. sometimes i use it to make everyones around me happy. i know, it's my mistake for spending the money overlimit, but im just a human, manusia, pantang ada duit sikit..

but anyway, try to be cool.. hidup mmg mcm ni, kena selalu sabar, sebagaimana Allah berfirman, Allah sentiasa bersama org yg sabar. yeee, sekasar kasar aku, hati ni lembut, tk sampai hati nk jd org yg hati kering, yg tk boleh nk maaf kan org, tp lama2, maafkan jugak org, walaupun perit mana dia buat kita. life, kena give and take. serba salah dibuat nya, bila balik sana, rindu yg dkt sini, tp bila dah dkt sini, rse mcm bnyak menyusah kan semua org, kenapa n kenapa ? salah diri sndiri jugak. umur dah besar panjang, tp perangai mcm budak2, tk matang langusng ! dok ckp org tk matang tak matang, tp ada tk cermin kan diri sndiri tu ? klu lah ada ujian berfikir dulu sblm buat, aku mybe diantara calon2 yg failed kot !

ingat sikit oi ! next year dah nak masuk 20 tahun ! sikit lg dah boleh kahwin, hekk tgk lah, itu pun klu ada rezeki, ada org nak, ada jodoh baik, tp apa pun, lama kelamaan, umur tu makin bnyak, so pertingkatkan lah prestasi diri, bak kata melodi, "pertingkatkan prestasi, kurangkan kontrovesi.." bila pikir2 balik, aku ni bnyk menyusah kan org kan ? ape lah jd nnt bila masa depan aku nnt ? takut karma :( hidup2, bila dilanda masalah mcm ni, rasa mcm dalam dunia nii, aku sorang je yg pikul masalah paling berat skali. insyaAllah, setiap masalah mesti ada jalan penyelesaian kannn, so smile :)

oh well 5 days to go. n lepas tu life will be back as normal. no more bangun lewat, no more tidur balik lepas solat subuh, n no more tv, laptop, handphone n mcm2 -.- so selama 2 bulan cuti ni ape aku dpt by duduk rumah ? sometimes bila pikir2 blaik ape bapak ckp, betul jugak. duduk rumah ni bnyk buang masa. makan, tidur, membesarkan badan :P elehh biar lah, janji hati senang, tk susah kan org :D

eh wa ckp betul lah. 5 hari je lg nak balik Indon tau ! lepas ni nk kena facing mcm2 dugaan n cabaran kt sana. like i used to -.- adehh, sabar je lah kot. bila pikir2 balik, kuat jugak en dugaan yg aku pernah facing b4 nih ? biasa2, hidup mcm roda, sekejap kt bawah sekejap kat atas, so, life must go on. tp rse cm tk sabar pulak nk balik sana, nk jumpa membe2 sana, tp at the same time, rse gerun jugak nak balik sana, facing mcm2 perangai kt sne -.- ape2 pun, redah je ! so ? tkda motif mlm ni, sekadar mengekspresi kan ape yg dirasai :)

sebagai seorang anak perempuan, saya tidak suka ditegur oleh seseorang yang bergelar bapa :/ it just hurt, that's all and i try to be a good person and bad stuff happens anyway..

hm hm hmmm. sye stress ! apa punca ? hanya sye dan Allah je yg tau -.- tragis nyer cte nihh ? tkde lah tragis mana, cuma hati ni macam rasa kena tembak je, ekelehhhh, dan dan, macam pernah rasa kena tembak pulak -.- okay cut the crap !

bukak fb, nampak nama awak, bukak google pun ! tbe tbe nama awak appear -.- kenapa n kenapa ? okay, al kisah, td bru je nak baca novel yg baru beli semalam, n tbe tbe ! watch it ! nama awak lagiiiiiiiiiiiiii ! ohh nooooooooo :( kenapa weh kenapaaaaa ? and started from last night, you were in my dream ! n even, u were in my dream when i was having my nap just now. tak lah stress mana pun, tp, sedikit sebanyak hidupku sedikit terganggu -.-
well dnt worry, i won't blame u 100 percent. it's my fault as well. my fault by falling for the wrong guy. ouchh ! -.-

okay sudah2 le tuuuuu, kembali ke alam realiti, di mana bumi berpijak, di situ langit dijunjung. and now im craving for somethng to eat, but dont know what. any suggestion ? jom keluar jalan jalan cari makan ? chowwwwww :)

Falling For You

I wanna scream because im CRAZY about someone, but i can't tell..