To the new begginings ! :)

aduhh agak lapar derr skarang, lapar nasi ! :( rse cm nk je aku keluar mlm nih smate mate nk cri tomyam cmpur dgn telur dada dgn nasi kosong. dpt makan tu pun jd lah weh -.- well, i was having a beautiful nightmare last night ! haha no no, its not a beautiful nightmare, but its a real scent ! finally ! dpt jugak dgr suara dia mlm td. haihh kte nih mcm ade connection jee kan kan, dont u feel soo ? urghh ofcuz not ! aku sorang je kot yg rse cmtu, gembira nya tk terkata lah jugak kan ! alangkah bagus nyer klu hari hari mcm ni :) tk gaduh gaduh, tk rse mcm in fake situation, tk mcm..u knw, pretending, everythngs was going on smoothly :) and starting from last night, let it start wth the new begginings ! :) thank you God ! i think u alrealdy heard my pray ! Alhamdulillah :) soo thats all for today, later guys ! goodnight and sweetdreams ! :)

I cant lie myself that i really really miss you :( Its not the fact that i miss being your girlfriend, but i just miss being in your life, miss being the only girl that u really love, miss being that how proud were u that time telling all your good friends that you love me and i really miss our good time that we've been spent together :( How lucky i am that time. I love being with you :( Im totally devastated :( Its my bad. I've done so many things that hurt you. Im so sorry :( Love, what can i do just to make you smile ? :((

Sad. Same thing happen over n over n over again. I thought tht u already forget me. I know u dont want to know anything about me. I know u've been pretending. I guess so and i guess im over u. But im not so sure since u texted me recently. Yeaaa, i did waiting for ur text the day by day, i did hoping for ur call and i did yearning for u, but somehow, people have their own limit. Truly, im really sick of it, im tired of whts happening, im tired of everything. I just want to have a peace life, at least, 1 day ? I thought tht i was having a peace life these days, about 2 months later and i thought im over with everythng ? But it wasnt ! Please, do not concern about my leaving. And for sure u wont. So, no tears Nad !

Dilemma :(

dilemma ! :( i got to tell u this. u are into me for everythng im not. so why dnt u just back off ? im so sorry, im not ready to work all thngs out with u cuz someone is having all my heart. and im just so not ready to take it bck from him. i cant accept u -.- im soo sorry ! please, i dnt deserves all ur kindness. u r too kind to me. why dnt u just go -.-

Frustrated ! :(((

:( im so sad :( aku dpt offer from KPM in Dip.in english communication but too bad i cnt go cuz im leaving to indonesia next month :( giler sedih ! aku minat giler in english communication (tesil) bt tk bole pg :( wht to do ? should i just blame the destiny ? no, i cnt do that. hurmmm :((

There are no mistakes in life, only lessons.

I don’t know what I want, so don’t ask me
Cause I’m still trying to figure it out

Like a knife

I wonder if u ever think about me when im thinking about u

You are always on my mind, Your face is all it can find. I think about you every day n someone told me once that if u want something, u have to go n get it yourself.. aint no body thats just gonna hand it to you, but im too scared to chase after you.. the more i chase the more you run, the less i chase the less complicated things are.. but i cant stand here forever can i ? i hate problems that have no solutions :(

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.

yaww whtsup whtsup ! haha sumpah mcm bengong giler, haha. pergh hari ni bnyk giler bergelak ketawa bagai dgn dyrah n esyaa, waa sumpah best doe hari ni dpt lepak dgn korang. ntah bila bila lah lg aku dpt lepak dgn korang lg lepas ni. anyway, bfore aku pg Surabaya, its a compulsary for me to lepak lepak dgn korang for the last time :( aww sedih pulak doe :( haihhh nnt masing masing dah dgn hala tuju masing masing. ntah bila bila je dpt lepak lg.

Whtever lah, skarng ni nk cerita benda yg best je :) if i keep talking about Surabaya, nnt lama lama bole menghilangkan mood aku, so better dont ! :) soo i had so much fun today dgn dyrah n esya. bole tk kteorg sesat jalan semata mata nk masuk tropicana city mall punya pasal. haha sumpah klakar giler td. then boleh pulak lalu kt tempat2 sempit, then org pandang mcm "WTH ! dia nih reti bawak kereta ke tk ?" haha sumpah sengal. last last masuk OU jugak, haha klakar giler lah td :D then bila sampai2 tempat parking tu, kteorg jumpa 3 org mamat cina. haha tk boleh bla kot ! kteorg siap bye2 bagai, haha tk boleh nk dscribe lah situasi time tu, bt mmg klakar habis lah :D

then sampai OU, our 1st destination was foodcourt ! :D masing masing tngah kelaparan time tu especially dyrah yg tk breakfast :D then we were heading to Waffle World n we had our lunch there. then afta makan tu pulak we were heading to FOS ! :) perghh time nk p FOS tu, sumpah aku rse mcm nk menunggu result SPM pulak doe ! i mean, we went there just bcuz to met HIM :) cuz hes working there. i mean, its been like 1 week n 3 days he doesnt contac me. so mcm *RINDUUUU giler :( then sje je lalu lalang kt situ. then dyrah suruh aku masuk n bwt2 trserempak dgn dia lah kan -.- perghh kecut2 perut aku + berdebar mcm nk trcabut jantung sume + sejuk2 tngan ! ape hal pun aku tk tau, haha mcm tk prnah jumpa dia je. bt mmg pun. last time jumpa dia pun last year -.-

soo aku pun masuk lah FOS tu dgn tkda motif nya just pasal nk tegur dia. aku belek mcm2 punya bju kt situ sumpah mcm org bodoh kot ! haha aesya ngn dyrah tgk aku dr jauh mcm dlm rancangan Wakena beb ! je doe ! haha. lepas tue aku pun p amik 1 bju n p byr (since dia pun dah dkt2 dgn cashier :D afta dah bayar tu, bila pusing je tapp ! dia betul2 depan aku haha.bt tht time dia tk sedar yg aku kt depan dia n aku pun dgn lagak sakai nyer "oitt ! u kerja ke kt sini ?!" haha dia pun dgn muka mcm malu2 (malu2 mmg nk kena sepak lah haha but CUTE doe :P) n trkejut kot tgk aku kt situ. then aku pun borak lah kejap2 dgn dia, sjee lepas rindu lah kte kan :P haha. n from wht i saw, he seems good, alhamdulillah :) trjge n trurus :) n thank God for saving him :)

then jalan punya jalan n we deciced to get out from OU n jln2 kt luar pulak. n bfore aku balik tu, i've met him for a while :) aww i miss youuu :( whtever lah. then afta kteorg keluar tu, kteorg p lepak rasta pulak. haha time kt rasta tu yg tk bole bla tuh ! bnyk main2 je kt sana. then mcm2 lah kteorg buat. n totally, we had so much fun today :) n i'll save it safely in my heart :) i feel like happy sgtsgt n tk tau knape :) to dyrah n esya, we'll meet up some other time okay :) n thanks for making my day cheerful today :) sayang korang ketat ketat ! haha. soo n now pun i feel like tired, n going to sleep since esok kerja. so later guys ! Goodnight :) n please check this song out :)

p/s i love you

Need you now by Lady Antebellum

Rasa cm nk jadi budak baik boleh tk ? Dah puas lah hidup mcm nih, tp tk puas sgt lah, tp mcm dah sengal otak je skrang nii ? Apesal ? Restless ! -.- Truth be told, im not ready to change :( Idk whyy :( I get influence easily :( So bila nmpak anythng yg mcm serasi dgn diri, aku cepat trpengaruh, kenapa ? Tk tau. Mybe i used to it. Then soon, bapak is going to send me to Surabaya, wht the heck ? Im not ready :( Mcm mana nii ? But according to ibu, all these stuff is a test for u nad. U're tempting. But seriously, im not ready for this change :( Aku still lg nak main main -.- Im dead if bapak n ibu find out this -.- And ! Ada orang kcu aku, tp tk tau siapa gerangan. And ! I still remember the scent. I wont forget it, ever n ever. It'll keep refreshing in my mind day by day. It's kind of priceless scent. U said move on where do i go ? I guess second best is all i will know. Wait ! I dnt miss u. I miss our memories, u dummy moron :(

And if only u knew how pathethic i am

hello folks ! its been a long time i've dissapeared ! lol. kinda busy this lately. currently, i've just started my work ! good news, though :D but seriously lama giler lah tk update blog but will always updating :) well not much news this lately. same things happened again n again n again :) well, lupa nk gtau, just got back from surabaya last week n i had soo much fun there especially when mady was around me tht time ! aww i love u bbe ! :) some more ? hehhh so today is a holiday n im going bck to work ths monday.

supposed to going out wth mady today, but too bad, bapak pulak tk kasi pakai kereta, iseyhh man, frust weyhh. currently im dying, stucking in here like damnnnn ! like boring sgt ! n somehow i feel like theres something lost in my life. no boyfriend ? erghh like damn ! i feel like my life wasnt soo tht perfect since u were away from my life. i got to tell u this. im sick of all these, n i really want to get over this thngs out, but why is it so hard for me to get over u ? its killing me ! urghhh ! n i cant stand a day wthout hearing ur voice n u tell me wht should i do while u're gone ? n if only u knew how pathethic i am