Kesempatan di dalam kesempitan

hello hello hello ! hmmm actually aku tk rasa mcm nk menulis blog pun. cuz as u guys known, im already here, in Malaysia bt its only for a while actually bcuz tomorow im going back :( actually tk ada mood nk menulis :( haaa aku benci dgn ape yg aku rasa sekarang, even it turns to hating myself -.- asal lah aku mcm nih. tidak menggunakan kesempatan yg ada dgn sebaik nyer. tp aku dah ambik kesempatan dlm kesempitan -.- gila jahat aku. kenapa mst jd mcm nii ? aku tk suka mcm ni :( thank God last night dpt borak dgn naqiu n dia sedikit sebanyak dah bg aku semangat. bt then aku still down :( kenapa macam ni ? :(

Homesick :(

I mean, im going to miss my home like so damn much, since im going away like milessssss away :( sedih sedih :( nanti rindu katil, rindu macam macam :( nanti sampai sana, katil dia tk sedap, and when bangun pagi pagi, sure sakit badan :( huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ;'((( but demi nak menyedap kan hati, alaahhh 1 tahun derr, apa lah sangat ! pejam celik pejam celik dah 1 tahun :) relax nad, masa kan sentiasa berjalan :) well enjoy everything and rock with it ! yeahhhhh ! /w/

and its 16 hours left ! awww saya macam takut and sgt nervous ! tk tau kenapa :( And why's this makes me so nervous ? Why does everything go wrong ? tkpe tkpe, sedap kan hati, Madihah kan ada :)

And lastly, to my dearest parents, ibu and bapak, i love you guys more than i love myself. seriously :) and i hate going like miles away from you both bcuz u both are my everythng, duniawi wa ukhrawi :) tanpa kalian berdua, siapa lah saya :( walaupun kadang kadang kata2 benci keluar dr mulut atau hati ini, it doesnt mean anythng, like the most quote tht i like, "action speaks louder than words", jadi, ampun kan saya juga :( saya sedang berazam nk jadi anak yg baik dunia akhirat, doakan saya, ibu, bapak :)

last but not least, to all my fellas, or sesiapa sahaja lah yg pernah atau sedang menjejak kan diri anda ke dalam blog saya, trimas kerana sudi membaca blog saya yg merepek ini. nk buat mcm mana enn, hidup ni perlu jugak ada masa2 and tempat utk meluah kan perasaan, dan ini tempat nyaa :) weeehheee :)) so guys, the next update will be coming your wayy. tgk lah celah mana aku nk carik cybercafe nnt -.- well later guys ! since barang pun tk habis packing lagi, and jam sudah pun menunjuk kan pukul 12.59 AM, 1 minit to 1 AM. haha so goodnight fellas ! wish me luck ! toodles ! (tepat pukul 1 pagi dah, hehe ;))) )

New Resolutions !

Aku berazam :

1. Untuk jadi anak yang baik
2. Untuk jadi anak yang mendengar kata.
3. Untuk jadi anak yang solehah.
4. Untuk jadi anak yang mendengar cakap ibu dengan bapak.
5. Untuk jadi anak yang tk kuat melawan.
6. Tidak mementing kan ego.
7. Tidak mementing kan diri sendiri, kawan.
8. FAMILY FIRST !
9. Mintak maaf kalau buat salah.
10. Hmmm tk tau apa lg dahhh.

Tapi aku berjanji dan berazam, akan berubah and for the next coming update, Nadia yg dulu, akan berubah menjadi The 'New Nadia' :)) hoping for it (jangan berharap je, you must do it and jangan cakap lebih, jangan omong kosong !)

Well 2 days left, then i'll be returning back to Surabaya ! Errghhhhh ! tercekik leher aku. sampai kering kering darah aku di buat nya* weeeeheeee, which is ayat ibu :P (pakai kejap :D) and esok, kena jumpa ibu and mintak maaf :( isk iskkk ! i hate mintak maaf ! which is that iss soooooo not me ! :'((( Goodnight fellas

A trip to the moon

Hello ! nadia is back ! :) well tkda bnda pun nak update bt ada lah sikit, tp tk bnyak pun :) and semalam, 18sept.2010, i've been spending the whole day with Syairawrrr :) memang best gila semalam. sampai balik rumah kena marah sebab tk reti2 nk balik awal since last night, we've got guest, which was my uncles and my aunties :D bt its not a big deal pun :) last last everythng was goes on smoothly :)

and semalam, about pukul 12.30 tengah hari, aku keluar dari rumah and pick syaira at her house. and sampai je rumah syaira, jumpa dgn parents syaira yg agak awesome ! haha. dorang memang best lah :) and afta tht, we've benn heading to cuve, mutiara damansara (erghh tk pernah2 aku sebut mcm nii :P) then sampai sana activity kteorg sebenarnyer just nk menghabis kan masa together cuz im going back soon :( so im gona miss syaira :( she was just a good friend to me :) okayy tukar cita balik. then syaira blanja makan kt bubba gump shrimps ! haha honestly mmg tk pernah makan kt situ and yesterday was my 1st time having my lunch there :) so thanks to syaira sebab dah mengenal kan aku tht place. so next time boleh lah dtg makan lg kt situ :)

and kteorg bnyk borak2 time makan tu, since dia punya mail, wahhh bapak besar pinggan dia -.- memang tk larat lah nk habis kan, tp gagah kan jugak lah habis kan since orang blanja kan :) tp tk habis pun ! haha. bt seriously, memang sgt sedap :) and again, thank you bbe :) well i got no thngs to say anymore, anyway, lets enjoy this photos of our moment :) check it out. bt since internet mcm slow, so i'll update later, so later guys ! :)

What if ..

Salam Syawal :)

well hello guys ! bertemu kembali dalam cetusan hati blog aku nihh :D haha celah mana cetusan hati :P well, selamat hari raya semua, maaf zahir dan batin jika ada terkasar bahasa, tersilap kata :) 0-0 lah hendak nya yaaa :)
huiii, ramadhan telah pun berlalu, kini syawal pula menjelma. rasa sayu je bila ramadhan dah pergi. ntah tahun depan panjang ke tk lagi umur nk jumpa ramadhan lagi kann, hmmm harapan, mudah mudahan di panjang kan umur lah, amin :)

agak agak lama lah jugak kan tk update blog nih. well masing masing busy benar lah hehh nk buat persiapan raya lah kata kan :D and sama lah jugak mcm aku nih :D hhehh. hmmm, selama tk update blog ni, bnyk lah jugak a few thngs happened and its totally sucks ! apa lg klu tk bukan berkenaan dgn cinta -.- haihhh lomah den ckp pasal cinta2 nihh -.- menyakit kan dan memahit kan ! well all the boys were the same. somehow, aku ada jugak terfikir, mungkin, life aku nih, mungkin ditakdir kan untuk berkahwin dulu baru bercinta kot ? HAHA. bt seriously, we cant tell the future. soo, yeahhh, just wait and see then :)

well, next week, on September 25th, i'll be returning back to Surabaya, Indonesia. and honestly say, i feel weak, curently -.- jantung aku berdegup bagai nk tercabut. nafas tk keruan. tiba tiba semangat jadi lemah -.- maybe, aku tk sedia lagi kot nk balik sana after a while bercuti panjang. May be. ergghh nk tknk, i have to face it ! so i thnk, thts all for now :) the coming update will be coming ur way, toodles !

Lets move on baybehh

Nadia Azwani, berjanji lah, mulai saat ini, waktu ini kau akan mengikuti semua yg tertera di bawah :

1. Jangan bukak page dia *
2. Jangan bukak page scandal dia
3. Jangan selalu sgt on IM
4. Jangan terlalu fikir kan soal lelaki
5. Last bt not least, lets move on ! :)

*means, tk janji, bt akan ku cuba. hahha

Sooo over youu

yuuhuuu ! bertemu kembali setelah sekian lama tk update blog. its not tht i dnt want to update it, bt its like, too many thngs happened ths lately n im so stress about it :( ape lah guna blog en klu tk reti nk guna ? bt then aku nih susah lahh. aku jenis yg suka pendam dan memendam -- tak elok. bad habits sebab nnt boleh kena high blood pressure -.- bt wht to do, saya ni dah memang jenis mcm tuu :)

okay back to the main topic, sekali lg dlm masa hampir setahun ini, aku dikecewakan, sekali lg :) tk payah nk senyum senyum lah kan, tp sakit nya, Allah saje yg tau :( memedih kan dan memilukan. he was cheating on you ?! wht do u expect it to happen ? hmm fine. aku memang tk tau nk cmnt ape pasal benda nih. sebab mcm dah lali sgt kena, bt bru 2x. tp 2x pun, sakit dia, sumpah tk terkata -- mcm lagu rihanna. 'just gonna stand there n watch me burn, bt thts alright bcuz i like the way it hurts, just gonna stand there n hear me cry, bt thts alright bcuz i love the way u lie, i love the way u lie' :( well, the conclusion is, all the boys were the same ! so just go wth the flow ! lets rock the world ! :)) toodles !

Life will never be the same, life is changging

semakin lama aku tk tahan lah gak kan duduk sini. well mana2 duduk pun same je. tkyah nk ckp problem tk prnah dtg, problem hari hari dtg bergolek, just pandai2 korg je nk handle mcm mne. ye aku mengaku, skarang nih aku dilanda musibah ! aku paling benci kena bebel. well thts normal lah. siapa yg suka kena bebel kan ? tp klu aku kena bebel ni tahap dia lain mcm sikit. walaupun salah aku tk sebesar mne n bole je settle sbnarnyer, tkyah pening2 kepala nk kecoh2, smpai sakit dada nk membebel. ntah lah. kadang kadang aku pun 1, suka buat org bebel. well dua2 pun sama je sbnarnya.

im counting the days of going back to Indonesia. another 25 days left. bak kate kawan2, still lme lg tu. yee, mmg lama, tp aku rse mcm tk sbr2 nk keluar dr rumah nih. well aku sakit. aku sedih. n somehow i really feel like how pathetic i am for being here, in this house. maybe bila 1 masa nnt, bila aku dah tkde, or jauh dr rumah nih, bru masing2 nk cari aku balik kot ? yeke ? dah lah, jgn nk mimpi. org yg selalu sakit kan hati org jgn harap nk dpt tempat kt hati orang tu. all these time, i know, im not being a good daughter, even a good sister. all this time i was being such a fucking shittt ! idk why my life isnt good as my fellas life. okay aku faham, setiap yg hidup mst ada masalh masing2 en. so tk payah nk ckp semua org hidup happy sgt lahh.

okay, anytime from now, bapak akan dtg marah aku :) well thts cool to know right ? :) cool ! just tunggu masa nk kena je lepas nih :) well, all the best nad :) just remember tht thngs happened wth reason :) anythng, if u need somethng to burst out wht u feel, lets it burst out here. dnt trust anyone than urself :)

Kau aku ? Takda makna nya --

okay. aku rasa sgt terabai sekarang -- walaupun aku dah ada depan mata, tp mcm tk di endah kan langsung -- sampai nya hati :( okay terus terang rasa mcm nk nangis. terus terang rasa mcm nk mengamuk n terus terang rasa mcm tk adil dilakukan sebegini :( aku benci jatuh cinta. dah semestinya ianya amat menyakit kan -- n im having my hard time :( okay maybe dia terlalu busy. okay tp smpai bila ? trust is wht we need. grrrr cut the crap nad ! sampai bila nk mcm niii :( benciiiiiiiiiiiiiii ! :'(

Biarkan Dia Pergi, Jangan Kau Kejar

please dnt say tht im falling for him like for real ?! shit ! :( i cant have ths feeling n i have to stop this feeling. it makes me suffer a lot ! i think im falling for him :( derr, is ths wht we called wht goes around comes around ? please say no :( shit ! im falling for him man ! i love him ! bt then, there's somethng tht distracting our relationship -.- he said tht he loves me, bt at the same time, he still wth his gf :( i cant accept that. it is sucks being the 3rd party ! -____________-

for real, aku dah jatuh hati. aku benci perasaan nih. its kay, i still got the time to cover ths feeling. aku boleh hidup lah tanpa lelaki ! ape ingat aku batak sgt ke haaa dgn korang ? ishhh semua ni buang masa ! nad, its time for you to be a bionic woman :) u cn live wthout them. just wait n see. some other day, some other time, there will be a good guy, n he'll give u his hand n lead u to a happy marriage :) huuyeeahhhh melambung lambung nmpak berangan kau ? tk sedar diri hape ? haihh ini lah dia manusia zaman skarang belajar tk habis lg tp dah meroyan mcm ape -_______________________- ingat nad, jgn lupa ibu dgn bapak dah bersusah payah hantar kau jauh2 utk belajar, sampai 1 masa nnt, buktikan pd dorang yg kau boleh :)

okayy, drpd aku terus terusan mencarut yg tk tentu pasal, better i get going off to bed. since skarang pun dah mununjukkan jam 2.41 AM. mari mula kan hidup baru esok, n be urslef :) huuuuyeaaaaaaahhh nadia dah stress :) night folks :)

You

God ! i really fall for him somehow :( my dear bby, i just cant go to sleep, cuz it fells like i've fallen for u n its getting way too deep :(

Dont let the boredom take over --

hola ! lame gak ehh tk update blog :D well what to do, lately nih cm tkde mood lah nk online, then malas yg tahap gaban pun yee. ntah lah cuz ths lately i feel so weak, like very weak ! -- bila online je rse cm bosan giler wehh -- haihh merungut lah pulak. cuba klu time kt surabaya, nk online punya lah susah, i feel like i rather dye than having my time there -- bt then now, when evertythng is completely in front of me, nk merungut pulak enn, tu lahh org yg tk reti nk bersyukur :P

okay done ! malas nk cte panjang2, nnt sure bosan. hari ni rse cm nk menangis ! haha tktau kenapa. i just watched the biggest loser australia, then ada this part, alaaa biase aa, part2 sedih menyayat hati cmtuh, tbe2 lak rse cm nk nangis. so sensitive ! :D hahah bt then tk nangis pun. just terase mcm nk nangis. meaning, aku punya hati :) hati lembut lah kate kannn, haha masuk lif tkena sendiri nmpak ? makne nyer aku tngah puji diri sndiri lah tuuu, hahah :D

so hari hari yg telah di lalui sejak kebelakangan sgt membosan kan, termasuk hari ni -- n paling celaka skali, ada jerawat tumbuh kt dlm telinga -- sakit nya Allah je yg tau :( hmm tu je la kot nk update -- tkde cte best punn. so later :)

Who was your first prom date?
I dont go to the prom

Who was your first roommate?
Mady, obviously

What was your first alcoholic drink?
None

What was your first job?
Sales Assistant :)

What was your first car?
I dont have my own car, bt i wish to have 1 :(

Who was your first grade teacher?
No idea

Where did you go on your first ride on airplane?
Cant recall

When you snuck out of your house for the first time, who was it with?
Mady :D

Who was your first best friend and are you still friends with them?
Mady, again

Where was your first sleep over?
Nadhirah n aisyah :D

Who is the first person you talk to in the morning?
My mum :)

Whose wedding were you in the first time?
Cant recall

What is the first thing you do in the morning?
Check my phone

What was the first concert you ever went to?
None

First tattoo or piercing?
At my nose :D bt then it was before :P

First celebrity crush?
Tom Felton

First crush?
Too many to recall -- HAHA

When was your first detention?
Dah lama lah, lupa --

First pet's name?
Tuah :)

First Kiss?
ehehmmmm <3>
Who was the first person to break your heart?
Same person as above --

Who will be the first to repost this?
Obviously ME. duhh !

Thats annoyed me ! --

grrrr ! okay fine, i know i shouldnt talk about ths thing at their back,bt nk cakap jugak -- okay, i just finished attend my qiraati class which is at my place n its been attended by my mum's friends n ofcuz my mum. i have to attend the class cuz its an order from my mum sbb tknk bg aku terlena sampai puku 11 pg -.- fine then. n during the class, okay fine ! i admit tht bacaan quran aku tkde lah betul n way perfect like the others bt then, is it a must for u to comment lebih2 then nk puji2 org like........so annoying ! sumpah td memanjang asyik buat muka je aku, bt im not sure whether they notice it or not, but WHO CARES ?! grrrrrr ! -- n im done ! -__________-

I messed everythngs up ! :(

duhh ! i totally messed everythngs up ! :( to abg ngah, im sorry :( kak long dah terbocor kan rahsia kau kt ibu n bapak :( sorry sgt sgt ! ntah mcm mne ntah :( maybe gara2 trlalu excited smpai trbukak cte tu kt ibu n bapak n ibu was totally angry :( gerun aku bila ibu marah -.- tu lah, padan muka kau ! mulut tk leh nk jage :| its my fault after all :| sorry abg ngah :(

haihh hari nih sgt membosan kan :( bt then hati cm tenang je bila bilik nih nmpak kemas :) satu hari nih berkemas sana sini, n finally everythng nmpk cm kemas n bersih je, lega mak :) haha. well ape aku merepek ni pun aku tk tau. the point is sje je nk buang mase update blog because i love keeping a journal. remembering wht i do n how i change n its really the basic reason why people blog anyway, to remember thngs for themselves n also to share. bt then, blog aku tkde lah se superb blog org lain yg like WHOAH tuu. bt then, hari ni aku dah buat somethng yg annoying which is, trbagitau ibu n bapak pasal phone abg ngah kena rampas -.- wessssssss da lah ibu tu cm hari ni angin dia kurang baik -.- sure sure abg ngah kena marah punya laa :( kesian adk ku :( sorry ngah, i'll promise u tht ths will be the last thng i'll do, after ths, i swear, i'll keep ur secret safely. SORRY ngah :( hmmm its already late, n kejap lg dah nk kena bngun sahur, wehhh esok puasa wehhh ! so i better get off to bed, cuz nnt klu tk trlewat bngun, lg teruk kena nnt, wht to doe, this is wht we called, LIFE ! well goodnight folks !

Embarassing part of my life :(

i feel like dying when he found out that im updating about him at my fb :( maluu giler ! tk tau aku mne nk letak muka nihhh, i feel like cryinggggggggggggg :(((( tuhan je tau betapa merana nyer aku skarang :((

Welcome home !

Hello hello hello ! Guysss ! Im back ! ehehhe :D finally, excited giler bai nk balik. after 1 week tnggu bagai nk rak, finally, sampai jugak rumah, home sweet home :) ehehhh. so, surabaya was good. ni pun holidays for 2 months, mmg best yg tk terkata lah wehh :D actually nk update blog since touch down lg, bt then smpai2 rumah pun dah penat, then nk kena settle kan luggage lg, soo dpt bukak kejap je then tk sempat nk update blog. ni pun bilik still lg mcm kapal pecah, bosan lah nk kemas, nnt2 lah, ehehhh :P

so nw im all alone. ibu n bapak pg outstation, then aku tnggal rumah. nasib baik amir yusuf ikut, klu tk, tk pasal2 je kena babysitter dia -.- well actually bosan sgt skarang ni :( i feel like screaming so tht thng tht have been buried in my heart will disappear. bt then i know, it cant be completely vanish, mst ada yg trtinggal punya :( it messed me up, need a second to breath :(

whtevr it is, i think its time for me to start with something new :) ready for everythnig i guess. n hopefully, everythng will goes on smoothly. from now, wht past is past :)

Leaving

finally ! ibu dah memaafkan aku :) or maybe ibu tk declare pun tht thng as gaduh gaduh, mybe sebab ibu malas nk layan perangai anak perempuan dia yg mcm chilldish, tk matang n ego niie :) ehehh well whtever it is, syukur yg tk terhingga aku :) bt then ada 1 masalah ni pulak :( haihh lepas satu satu masalah yg dtg. bt then, its not a big deal for me, bt pity ibu :( she have to facing tht problem alone :( bt ibu, i'll always be here for u, no matter wht happen :) iloveyou ibu :) apehal korang ? elehhh nmpak je aku ni keras cm dawai besi, tp hati aku ni lembut baii, tk rela aku org buat mcm2 kt ibu aku :)

well actually i got nothing to say. just nk update for the last time since i'll fly to Surabaya esok :( wuahhh ! gona miss Malaysia A LOT ! serious doe, tkde tempat mne yg lg best melainkan Malayasia. (tk habis habis ulang ayat same -__-) ehehhh lantak lah situ. will be returning bck on ths 3rd August. soo hari pun dah lewat malam, n barang pun bnyk yg tk pack lg (tu lah, suka sgt buat kerja last last minute -______-, biar lah, hobi aku) n mata pun sebenarnye dah tk terangkat nih. n bnyk lg nk kena settle nih. so will meet u guys soon ! the next update will be coming ur way. so goodnight everyone ! have a good sleep n sugardreams everyone ! Toodles ! :)

whooaahh ! smalam ada lah hari yg terbaik bg aku which was ; i fought wth my mum :( gosh ! i told u, all these kind of tnhgs must happen, if tk aku yg cari pasal pun, org lain punya pasal pun aku jugak yg kena -___- sedih ohh klu gaduh gaduh cmni, tragis ! sampai laptop pun kena bannded smalam dgn ibu :( meracau racau aku tk dpt online punya pasal smalam, dah lah esok nk balik Surabaya, ishh ! sgt tragis :( well, utk pengetahuan, aku adalah seorang yg EGO tinggi bak melangit (err ade 'bak' ke ? whtever laa), bab bab nk mintk maaf ni mmg sgt payah bg aku -____-
aku bukan org yg suka mintk maaf -___- well thts my weekness ! ehehh. then if aku buat hal dgn ibu, for sure for sure laa aku kena mintk maaf, n thts pathetic for me :( i hate doing tht ! bcuz i hate dramatic situation ! nnt klu bila nk mintk2 maaf ni bagai, mst ada touching touching emo emo, ishhhh ! tk kuasa aku oii ! -________-

then trpaksa lah aku ni berkurung dlm bilik, tnpa keluar mkn, minum n mcm2, nasib ada novel phone, peneman di kala kesedihan, n thanks to naqiu by lending me ur ears :) u're trully kind n somehow i can feel the spirit is bleeding in my body :) thanks naq ! :) n last night, i was thinking to appologize ibu, bt then, hari dah semakin larut, so aku just batal kan niat aku n wait for the next morning which is, this morning, bt ntah mcm mne ntah, aku tr overslept n sedar2 dah pukul 9 n dpt text from ibu 'Ibu di luar. Tunggu amir balik jam 1145' dangg baby ! wht does tht means ? does ibu prepared to talk to me ? cuz slalu nya, ibu tk kan brckp dgn aku smpai aku mintk maaf dkt dia ;| well i got no cmnt about tht. hoping tht everythng will be fine soon cuz aku dah nk balik Surabaya nihh, tknk laa karang ibu abaikan aku :( mampus aku nk study ape kt sne klu tkda bless dr ibu :(

haihh, im going to fly to Surabaya by tomorow :O tknk balik bole tk ? cinfirm2 rindu malaysia seyhh :( tknk balik tknk balik ! haha. tk bole jd nih, kena balik jugak, nak jd ape kau tknk blaja ? ehehhh :D tkpe la, 3rd August dah nk balik :) for 2 months pulak tu, sempoi ! :D n awak ! bakalan rindu awak nnt :) jaga diri yeah ! :) well, the next update will be coming ur way, toodles ! :)

You are ..

ish ! hari ni rase cm nk emo ! nk marah je kt semua org -___- im so sad :( tk dpt nk attend wedding kt Klang hari ni, sumpah cam bosan giler ! tk tau nk buat ape doe hari ni. bosan ! 2 days left n i will fly to Surabaya back :( im gona miss Malaysia, tanah tumpah darah ku ! :( tu lah, dlu nk sgt pg jauh jauh, skarang, sndiri tanggung lah ! -__-
last night layan lagu stay by miley cyrus, wuhh ! sumpah emo giler kot ! haha. dgr sampai trlelap, sedar sedar je phone dah mati sbb batery kong ! :D haishhh sye sgt stress skarang ! sye emo dgn semua org ! sbb pg2 lg ada yg dah rosak kan mood sye. jd di blog ini lah tmpat aku nk melantun kan ape yg dah trpendam giler babi dlm hati nih -__-

bak kate mady, bbe, just put urself in tht girl situation, after all, when she find out wth who r u seeing, mst dia marah kan ? soo just let it be. dnt put any hopes otherwise, u yg sakit' huuuu. bermakna giler kate2 dia nih -__-
bt nk buat mcm mne, dah TER ......... i mean, its already happened for a long time, bt just fikir tk rapat, so i dnt thnk so 'tht thng' will happen. erghhh CUT THE CRAP ! tht thing will never ever happen ! kau kena terima hakikat nad ! nothing is impossible ! kalau dlu kau boleh buat, kenapa skarang kau tk boleh ? kau kena kuat nad ! :)

Emo

Well it's good to hear your voice
I hope you're doing fine
And if you ever wonder
I'm lonely here tonight
Lost here in this moment
Time keeps slipping by
If I could have just one wish
I'd have you by my side

falling for him

Sorry DUDE ! -.-

wuhuuu ! perghh otak mcm dah bengong je skarang nih. bt just now was superb ! lepak for the last time dgn naq cuz he's going back to kelantan, membawa hati yg lara :( haihh naq, sedih lak aku, jauh nar membawa hati tu. well aku rase cm nk berubah aa skarang, nk jd budak baik. boleh en ? bt then td aku cm dah buat org sakit hati aa -.- seriously, im not happy at all, bt its my bad by doing tht to him. haihhh pasal kisah lame punya pasal, trbawak bawak smpai kena kt org yg tk spatutnya kena -.- SORRY YOU ! didnt meant to hurt you --. dah aa, what past is past, lets start wth somehting new :)

actually just came bck from alsafa n rasta, lepak2 dgn budak2 ni semua, best giler aa. sampai kepala pun dah naik ting tong dah, shisha punya pasal, hahah :D bt sumpah best aa ! lepas ni sure tk tau bila lg bole keluar ramai2 cmni. bt yg paling best ! my uncle was there ! ahahah uncle yg paling sporting ! youuu, best ouhh you ada td ! rse cm tknk bg u balik lak, rse cm nk kepit 24 jam dgr n tgk u yg mcm karut, giler2 tp best ! :D haihhh next week nk balik indon daaahhh, oh tidak ! -.- will miss malaysia n the surrounding so much ! -.- right, tknk ckp sgt pasl bnda ni, bt then aku mcm dah jd kejam aa td. aku buat org sakit hati dgn aku -.- erghhhh knape lah knape, klu dah tau tk suka, u shouldnt accept him nad. kan skarang, perasaan guilty yg membara. bt then, bak kate uncle trsayang, chehhh ! :D better terus terang dr terus terusan menipu perasaan yg ntah pape tuh. so no hurt feeling ! i have to -- sorry dude !

so got nothing to talk here. i guess i better get some rest. so goodnight ! :)

Restless

errr malam ni rase cm tk sihat aa, rse cm nk demam, rse cm tk sedap badan sgtsgt -.- penyakit aku dtg lg -.- errkkk nk pengsannnn ******** stresss, dilemma, paranoid, phobia -.- bleaghhhhhhh bosannn lah mcm nihhhh haihhh. haaa ni lah dia siti nadia, tk habis habis nk mengeluh, nk merungut. ape nk jd dgn kau ni nadia nadiaaaa. whtever it is, we just wait n see wht is gona happen. ihh tk larat dah, goodnight

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Guyss ! im home ! hehe :D perghh giler rindu malaysia tanah tumpah darah ku ! sebaik sahaja tayar kapal terbang mencecah bumi malaysia, aku rse cm nk teriak sepuas hati je der, mcm batak giler je doe ! haha :D haha padahal ni bukan official lg cuti, just emergency leave cuz nk kena settle kan visa, then 22th june baru pulang :) n somehow, i already miss Sunniyah Salafiyah :( ape lah budak2 tu tngah buat skarang enn especially Aesya al hamid :*) perghh senang bangat gue sme ini anak, keren gitu :) dah aa esok subject kak aesya, ishhh asyik miss je subject dia :| whtever aa, as long as nnt balik jumpa kak aesya lg :) idola ku, haha :D

well, so far surabaya was superb ! :) i mean, mmg best giler aa kt sne. cnt describe laa experience kt sne tu mcm mne :) eleh, ni bru 3 minggu kt sne, belum setahun lg, derr masuk air aku nnt, haha :D so theres nothing much la nk cite pasal class, everythng goes on smoothly so far, alhamdulillah :) n even im learning arabic day by day kot ! ra'seyy rek ! tk lme lg, ana tatakallamu billughatul arabiyyah ;) ya salammmm ! hehhh suka suka :D okay fine, dah masuk air sikit dah aku nih -.-

ya wess, ntar di terusin lg yaa. now, aku tngah dilemma gler babi. bak kate org cerdik pandai, peribahasa jadah sume lah kan, di luah mati mak, di telan mati bapak. aku tk faham aa dgn dunia skarang nih. penat doe mcm nih. aku tk faham aa manusia nih. sumpek ana rek ! pokok nya, hati dgn perasaan tu tk bole buat main. once dah heartbroken, mmg susah giler nk recover. takes time to heal pulak tu. dah lah lme, pastu terseksa mcm org bodoh, ish Allah je lah yg tau ape rse mase tu. seriously, mcm tkda mood dah skarang nk layan cintan2 bodoh ni sume, buat sakit hati 1, pastu kena tipu hidup2 pulak tu, ishh mne dia letak hati dia huh ? tk brperasaan, sanggup buat org mcm tu. then now nk claim yg mcm tu pulak ? bullshit giler ! nw idk wht r u trying to play wth me. tk puas2 kot nk main kan hati org kan ? well, nvermind then, terus kan lah bermain dgn alam ciptaan u tu, sampai hati u dah betul2 puas. klu betu lah ape yg dah di cakap tu, prove me then ! -.-

Falling :)

erghhhh ! makin nk bla makin menjadi jadi je semua, stress mcm org giler kot ! hishhh ! rse cm nk maki hamun je semua org -.- stress tahap bangang aa ! -.- sorang memekak kt sini, sorang memekak kt sne, perghh blodyhell everyone ! -.- finally ! all the love tht i've kept for u all these while had turned to be the hatest thing in my life tht i hate it so strong. i cnt accept the fact tht all these while, i've fallen for the wrong guy which is a COWARD ! damn hell. aku silap sayang dkt kau. all the things tht happened to me was very pathetic. only mady's knows how i looked tht night.

well, im leaving by tomorow. flight will be on 2.00 pm. im gona miss malaysia so much :( n im gona miss all my friends. there will be no hangout after this friends ! tk tau bila lg bole berjumpa. haihh rse mcm sedih sgt. semua yg ada dlm hati ni sgt menyesak dada aku :( i cannot stand wth all these. God, im not strong like everyone thought. im week, very week. well goodbye Malaysia. im away for 3 months n will be return bck on 3rd august 2010 n flight will be on 12.55 am at KLIA LCCT :)

ahahhh. ada this story sikit :) mady n i were hangout last 2 nights n we were meeting adam n his friends :) well its not bad hanging around wth them bt instead soo damn funny ! :D they were like kelakar gler babi n comel jee :) n at some moment, we met adam's father which uncle norman n he was very cool tht time ! uncle mmg best lah, n hoping to meet u again uncle :) we talk n talk like until 2 am in the morning dkt mamak :D n after tht, mady n i were planing to balik since mate masing2 pun mcm dah tk terangkat je, haahaha. n finally, kteorg pun balik bt bfore tht, somethng happened which is........ only me n u know <3 :) toddles guys ! :D

U know u love me

okay. just got back from hanging around wth dyrah, esya, izzi n danish. err jap. danish lepak skali ke ? err lepak jugak kot. just dia dtg lewat sikit dr kteorg, hehh. so now aku nk buat confession kt izzi, that.. izzi, kau dgn danish mmg sweet gler babi :) teringat aku time time aku dgn dia suatu ketika dahulu, haha okay cut the crap ! -.- back to the main topic. well, the four of us were having our lunch at Manhattan Fish Market which located at Cineleisure Damansara. but then kteorg lepak sat je. cuz esya kena gerak awal n kena ada kt rumah by 5.

so selama kteorg lepak start dr pukul 2.30 smpai ke 5.30 ptg tu, mcm2 yg kteorg dah borak n gelak2. wahh indah nyer lah. after this, no more lepak2 cuz masing masing mcm busy giler study. n aku lg lah, perghh jauh nun ke sana 2 jam perjalanan klu nk p ke sana -.- n for sure, klu dorg lepak aku tkde -.- sad sad n sad :( 4 days left derr. aduhh mcm tragis je nk pg nih wehhh. haha. jap2, bukan nk kte aku pg tk ikhlas, but rse mcm im going to go away n away from my mummy n daddy :( n im gonna be a homesick :( especially to my bedroom :(

dah lah, mcm malas lah nk ckp pasal nih. bikin hati jd ribut -.- btw, i miss him a lot. i just met him just now n rindu dia kot :( im leaving ! dnt u want to say somethng bfore i go ? i'll be gone :( u knw wht, somehow, i could feel tht thng will happen at some point, but for a mean time, i wish it would never happen :( urghhhh ! why why n why all these thngs keep playing in my mind ? its make me suffer a lot ! duhh u knw why ? bcuz u know i love u

All i ever wanted

all i ever wanted, all i ever wanted was a simple way to get over you, all i ever wanted, all i ever wanted was an in-between to escape this desperate scene, where every law reveals the truth, baby cause all i ever wanted, all i ever wanted was YOU ! OMG OMG ! belum pg indon lg, alih2 dah tempah ticket nk balik, wuhaaaaaa, haha sumpah rse cm excited giler derrr ! will be back on 3rd August of 2010 :) n the excited part !! nnt balik dgn tuuuttttttttttttttttttt heeeeeee suka suka ! :D

im leaving soon ! -.- hurmmmm -.- sedih sedih dan sedih. mcm2 peasaan yg melanda diri aku nih :( was it a right decision tht i've made ? urghhh ! i dnt want to talk about it. just waiting for the very right time to come. anyway, i just got the time to update my blog :) mcm biasa, busy dgn keje je, bt next week aku dah nk stop dah pun :( duhh i'll will miss Hilyah's load ! :( 1 month n 10 days have tought me a lot on how to...u knw, berdiri di atas kaki sendiri :) n i've learned something at Hilyah tht maybe i couldnt get it from anywhere :)

well i've got nothing to say actually. bt somethng is distracting me. aku tk tau siape punya angkara yg suka sgt nk buat onar dlm kehidupan org. well doe, get a life lah ! klu kau betul2 ank jantan, jgn jd bacul pengecut lah doe ! nk kutuk, kutuk depan2, sumpah tkda telur doe kau ! tunjuk lah sikit muka kau tuh, handsome sgt ke doe ? layak sgt ke nk dgelar HOT ? erghh bg aku, mybe tk kot, tkkan smpai pd gelaran tu, jauh skali nk dibanding kan dgn tuan punya perangai n klu kau perempuan skali pun, yg ada maruah diri, tnjuk kan lah diri kau kt aku, aku nk tgk, lawa sgt ke kau smpai nk kutuk2 aku ? well im hoping n praying to whom who've been insulting me by calling me with tht "name", hope Allah will bless u n ur family, n hope Allah will forgive all ur sins tht u've done to people :) God bless u always buddy :)

haaa, about my leaving ! seriously aku tk buat langsung preparation :D n when people keep asking, haaa aku angguk je lah, yeaaa udah packing brg nyerrr ! haha padahal tk pun. sikit pun tk. bru letak 1 seluar, hahah :D
derr, benda aku merepek doe ? supposed to luah kan ape yg aku tngah memendam skarang nih, but then tersasar entah merepek meraban ntah ke mane. well, IMISSHIM ! haaaaaa goodnight :)

To the new begginings ! :)

aduhh agak lapar derr skarang, lapar nasi ! :( rse cm nk je aku keluar mlm nih smate mate nk cri tomyam cmpur dgn telur dada dgn nasi kosong. dpt makan tu pun jd lah weh -.- well, i was having a beautiful nightmare last night ! haha no no, its not a beautiful nightmare, but its a real scent ! finally ! dpt jugak dgr suara dia mlm td. haihh kte nih mcm ade connection jee kan kan, dont u feel soo ? urghh ofcuz not ! aku sorang je kot yg rse cmtu, gembira nya tk terkata lah jugak kan ! alangkah bagus nyer klu hari hari mcm ni :) tk gaduh gaduh, tk rse mcm in fake situation, tk mcm..u knw, pretending, everythngs was going on smoothly :) and starting from last night, let it start wth the new begginings ! :) thank you God ! i think u alrealdy heard my pray ! Alhamdulillah :) soo thats all for today, later guys ! goodnight and sweetdreams ! :)

I cant lie myself that i really really miss you :( Its not the fact that i miss being your girlfriend, but i just miss being in your life, miss being the only girl that u really love, miss being that how proud were u that time telling all your good friends that you love me and i really miss our good time that we've been spent together :( How lucky i am that time. I love being with you :( Im totally devastated :( Its my bad. I've done so many things that hurt you. Im so sorry :( Love, what can i do just to make you smile ? :((

Sad. Same thing happen over n over n over again. I thought tht u already forget me. I know u dont want to know anything about me. I know u've been pretending. I guess so and i guess im over u. But im not so sure since u texted me recently. Yeaaa, i did waiting for ur text the day by day, i did hoping for ur call and i did yearning for u, but somehow, people have their own limit. Truly, im really sick of it, im tired of whts happening, im tired of everything. I just want to have a peace life, at least, 1 day ? I thought tht i was having a peace life these days, about 2 months later and i thought im over with everythng ? But it wasnt ! Please, do not concern about my leaving. And for sure u wont. So, no tears Nad !

Dilemma :(

dilemma ! :( i got to tell u this. u are into me for everythng im not. so why dnt u just back off ? im so sorry, im not ready to work all thngs out with u cuz someone is having all my heart. and im just so not ready to take it bck from him. i cant accept u -.- im soo sorry ! please, i dnt deserves all ur kindness. u r too kind to me. why dnt u just go -.-

Frustrated ! :(((

:( im so sad :( aku dpt offer from KPM in Dip.in english communication but too bad i cnt go cuz im leaving to indonesia next month :( giler sedih ! aku minat giler in english communication (tesil) bt tk bole pg :( wht to do ? should i just blame the destiny ? no, i cnt do that. hurmmm :((

There are no mistakes in life, only lessons.

I don’t know what I want, so don’t ask me
Cause I’m still trying to figure it out

Like a knife

I wonder if u ever think about me when im thinking about u

You are always on my mind, Your face is all it can find. I think about you every day n someone told me once that if u want something, u have to go n get it yourself.. aint no body thats just gonna hand it to you, but im too scared to chase after you.. the more i chase the more you run, the less i chase the less complicated things are.. but i cant stand here forever can i ? i hate problems that have no solutions :(

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.

yaww whtsup whtsup ! haha sumpah mcm bengong giler, haha. pergh hari ni bnyk giler bergelak ketawa bagai dgn dyrah n esyaa, waa sumpah best doe hari ni dpt lepak dgn korang. ntah bila bila lah lg aku dpt lepak dgn korang lg lepas ni. anyway, bfore aku pg Surabaya, its a compulsary for me to lepak lepak dgn korang for the last time :( aww sedih pulak doe :( haihhh nnt masing masing dah dgn hala tuju masing masing. ntah bila bila je dpt lepak lg.

Whtever lah, skarng ni nk cerita benda yg best je :) if i keep talking about Surabaya, nnt lama lama bole menghilangkan mood aku, so better dont ! :) soo i had so much fun today dgn dyrah n esya. bole tk kteorg sesat jalan semata mata nk masuk tropicana city mall punya pasal. haha sumpah klakar giler td. then boleh pulak lalu kt tempat2 sempit, then org pandang mcm "WTH ! dia nih reti bawak kereta ke tk ?" haha sumpah sengal. last last masuk OU jugak, haha klakar giler lah td :D then bila sampai2 tempat parking tu, kteorg jumpa 3 org mamat cina. haha tk boleh bla kot ! kteorg siap bye2 bagai, haha tk boleh nk dscribe lah situasi time tu, bt mmg klakar habis lah :D

then sampai OU, our 1st destination was foodcourt ! :D masing masing tngah kelaparan time tu especially dyrah yg tk breakfast :D then we were heading to Waffle World n we had our lunch there. then afta makan tu pulak we were heading to FOS ! :) perghh time nk p FOS tu, sumpah aku rse mcm nk menunggu result SPM pulak doe ! i mean, we went there just bcuz to met HIM :) cuz hes working there. i mean, its been like 1 week n 3 days he doesnt contac me. so mcm *RINDUUUU giler :( then sje je lalu lalang kt situ. then dyrah suruh aku masuk n bwt2 trserempak dgn dia lah kan -.- perghh kecut2 perut aku + berdebar mcm nk trcabut jantung sume + sejuk2 tngan ! ape hal pun aku tk tau, haha mcm tk prnah jumpa dia je. bt mmg pun. last time jumpa dia pun last year -.-

soo aku pun masuk lah FOS tu dgn tkda motif nya just pasal nk tegur dia. aku belek mcm2 punya bju kt situ sumpah mcm org bodoh kot ! haha aesya ngn dyrah tgk aku dr jauh mcm dlm rancangan Wakena beb ! je doe ! haha. lepas tue aku pun p amik 1 bju n p byr (since dia pun dah dkt2 dgn cashier :D afta dah bayar tu, bila pusing je tapp ! dia betul2 depan aku haha.bt tht time dia tk sedar yg aku kt depan dia n aku pun dgn lagak sakai nyer "oitt ! u kerja ke kt sini ?!" haha dia pun dgn muka mcm malu2 (malu2 mmg nk kena sepak lah haha but CUTE doe :P) n trkejut kot tgk aku kt situ. then aku pun borak lah kejap2 dgn dia, sjee lepas rindu lah kte kan :P haha. n from wht i saw, he seems good, alhamdulillah :) trjge n trurus :) n thank God for saving him :)

then jalan punya jalan n we deciced to get out from OU n jln2 kt luar pulak. n bfore aku balik tu, i've met him for a while :) aww i miss youuu :( whtever lah. then afta kteorg keluar tu, kteorg p lepak rasta pulak. haha time kt rasta tu yg tk bole bla tuh ! bnyk main2 je kt sana. then mcm2 lah kteorg buat. n totally, we had so much fun today :) n i'll save it safely in my heart :) i feel like happy sgtsgt n tk tau knape :) to dyrah n esya, we'll meet up some other time okay :) n thanks for making my day cheerful today :) sayang korang ketat ketat ! haha. soo n now pun i feel like tired, n going to sleep since esok kerja. so later guys ! Goodnight :) n please check this song out :)

p/s i love you

Need you now by Lady Antebellum

Rasa cm nk jadi budak baik boleh tk ? Dah puas lah hidup mcm nih, tp tk puas sgt lah, tp mcm dah sengal otak je skrang nii ? Apesal ? Restless ! -.- Truth be told, im not ready to change :( Idk whyy :( I get influence easily :( So bila nmpak anythng yg mcm serasi dgn diri, aku cepat trpengaruh, kenapa ? Tk tau. Mybe i used to it. Then soon, bapak is going to send me to Surabaya, wht the heck ? Im not ready :( Mcm mana nii ? But according to ibu, all these stuff is a test for u nad. U're tempting. But seriously, im not ready for this change :( Aku still lg nak main main -.- Im dead if bapak n ibu find out this -.- And ! Ada orang kcu aku, tp tk tau siapa gerangan. And ! I still remember the scent. I wont forget it, ever n ever. It'll keep refreshing in my mind day by day. It's kind of priceless scent. U said move on where do i go ? I guess second best is all i will know. Wait ! I dnt miss u. I miss our memories, u dummy moron :(

And if only u knew how pathethic i am

hello folks ! its been a long time i've dissapeared ! lol. kinda busy this lately. currently, i've just started my work ! good news, though :D but seriously lama giler lah tk update blog but will always updating :) well not much news this lately. same things happened again n again n again :) well, lupa nk gtau, just got back from surabaya last week n i had soo much fun there especially when mady was around me tht time ! aww i love u bbe ! :) some more ? hehhh so today is a holiday n im going bck to work ths monday.

supposed to going out wth mady today, but too bad, bapak pulak tk kasi pakai kereta, iseyhh man, frust weyhh. currently im dying, stucking in here like damnnnn ! like boring sgt ! n somehow i feel like theres something lost in my life. no boyfriend ? erghh like damn ! i feel like my life wasnt soo tht perfect since u were away from my life. i got to tell u this. im sick of all these, n i really want to get over this thngs out, but why is it so hard for me to get over u ? its killing me ! urghhh ! n i cant stand a day wthout hearing ur voice n u tell me wht should i do while u're gone ? n if only u knew how pathethic i am

Tiada Motif -______-

soo ok.agak lame tk post blog cuz i've spend my week since 28 feb till today at my grandma's :) its really cool there but somehow i've started to miss my opah :( n now kesian dkt opah, obviously she's alone now wthout me -.- cut the crap ! ahah aku pun tk tau ape yg aku merepek kan nih. otak mcm dah weng gler.next week result dah nk keluar, mann its freaking me out ! -___- kau giler ape ?! everybody's was expecting something from me.dah tentu lah dorg expect yg gler2 punya.perghh stress ohh mcm nih.nnt bila result keluar,heboh ! klu boleh 1 keturunan nk tau -.- aiiii -.- seriously aku tk tau ape yg aku merepek sgt skarang nih. well i need my sleep, soo later ! Sugardreams ! :)

its annoyed me yawwww -.-

Ramblingggggg bfore sleep

sooo had a good time with fara today :) we watched percy jackson and the lightning thief and it was superb ! and the lead actor was like damn HOT ! and we both already melted wth his blue eyes as he acted as a son of Poseidon, Lord of the sea :) but anythng, u guys must watch it :D soo hanging wth fara, masuk mcm2 kedai, try san sini punya baju, then lunch dkt aunty anne n i tell u ! hotdog dia sedap giler weyyyh ! then afta tht pg lah merayap jln2, then sampai kt ths one stall ni, aku tringin la pulak nk pierce hidung (actualy dah lme nk bwt, but asyik tkde mase je) then, i think bout 10 to 15 mins bfore pierce tu, aku mcm org tk tntu arah cuz like cuak gler bila nk pierce tu, haha. tkle bla kot. kejap nk bwt, kejap tknk. mcm ape jee :D but atlast ! aku selamat lah jugak pierce hidung aku tu, soo for the time being, i feel like a little bit uncomfortable la -.- rasa cm nk tonyoh aje hidung nih ! hahah :D but then everythngs going on smoothly today :D sooo now actually mata dah ngantok giler ! soo mybe later guys ! Goodnight and sugardreams ! And i miss u a lot -.-

You cant face the world if you're not being yourself.

nothing much interesting today. the time goes same like the past days. somehow i miss my old days i've spend together with you. feeling bad recently. to me, u're my personal miracle. i wanted u to be the first and the last, but i couldnt ensure yet if tht thing might possible happen in a real life. so i'll take it as... 'DREAM ON'. i just being myself. try to forget u, but seems like it didnt work out. thts horrible. i have to fight wth these feelings like everyday, every hours, every mins or even every seconds. its pathetic. but at least im being who i am.

Even if u were a millions miles away I could still feel u near me

sooo life have been pretty good soo far (and im watching santau :D haha) couple days ago, i've made a decision to forget everything tht have any related to him, (actually dah bnyk kali nk buat, but tk menjadi ! haha) but then, last night he called me ! ^^. i feel like, goshhh ! i DO need u right now, but at the same time, i REALLY need some times to forget everything bout u, but whyy, when everything goes on smoothly, u appear back ? ^^ i thought u never need me -.-

and recently, idk why all of sudden, everything bout that BIATCH came up in my mind, and kept distracting me from doing everything tht i wanted to do, perghhh gila stress weyhh. ntah apa punya setan pun aku tk tau -.- i feel like crying like hell, mcm....damn kau ! and i feel like menyesal giler p tnya dkt si 'Dia' pasal tht B tu. tu lah, gatal sgt nk tau, menyesal tk sudah weh -.- and bck to the main topic; okay like 3 days ago kot, like the whole day, he doesnt call me or even text me ! okay at first, aku berlagak cool lah kan, relax aa, meaning, berlagak like 'im gonna find a way to make it without u...tonight !' but mcm sengsara sikit aa, haha mmg sengsara tahap gaban aa, nak nak lg when i've tried so hard to recall BACK ! wht they both have been through together -.- tu lah, gedik lg nk p recall pasal depa bwt pe -.- then mcm dah boring sgt, aku tdo and off phone. soo then the next morning tu bila bukak phone, then tgk ada 3 misscalled weh ! no cmnt ^^

then last night, he pranked me ! perghh mcm.... ! mmg aku mencarut tahap *&%#$$ ! bla bla bla, borak dgn dia, sampai dkt this part, i've made a decision to tell him wht i've felt bfore cuz sepanjang aku borak dgn dia, ada je benda yg aku mengarut, nk marah2 n stuff(since im having my bad PMS ! -.-) n mybe dia like bengang kot (lantak kau lah ^^) soo dia suruh aku burst out wht i've felt (haaa good idea sayang !) (even i miss calling him wth tht name -.-) sooo i told him the truth n about a few minutes, he give me like some excuses (he was trying to avoid me thought -.-) hell ya ! n from there i've made a very hard hard decision, to forget everything ABOUT HIM ! then aku hantar like 1 page text n tell him to not contact me n just forget everythng tht happened n he replied, 'up to u then'. soo yeahhh ! n pg td bngun, feel like nk mula hidup baru lah konon2 (:P) n everything goes on smoothly today, then ptg td, he called me ! haaaaaaaaaaaa then sumpah aku tk tau nk cmnt ape ^^.
sooo thts wht happened today, soo mybe later guys ! (rse mcm hari ni bnyk curse org, no hard feeling !)

Just Let It Flow

Its been like ages i didnt update ths blog. I was very busy bfore, preparing for my driving license test, and finally, i past ! :D OMG ! its like, bulan jatuh ke riba, ahahaha. Then internet pulak like.. slow giler babi lah, susah giler nk online -.-then now bila dpt online, perghh nikmat giler ! got nothing to say actually, its like boring giler, n need somethng to burst out my emotion. life is just the same. nothng interesting in my daily life, except for going to metro, cuz everytime ada je driving lesson, mesti excited giler, pg2 buta lg dah bngun to get prepared for the class, haha. but seriuosly, sometimes feeling cnt be expressed with words, soo later !

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going
Coming
Thought I heard a knock
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realized
That I really didn't know.

If you didn't notice
You mean everything, quickly I'm learning
To love again, all I know is
I will be OK.

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll All get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve too
It'll all get better in time

I could of turned on the TV
Without something that would remind me
Was it all that easy?
To just put us out your feeling

If I'm dreaming
Don't wanna to let it hurt my feelings
But that's the past I believe it

Since there's no more you and me
This time I let you go so I can be free
And Live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is
I'll be fine without you
Yes I Will

I just stare out of my window

uhuuhhh baru je lepas make over bilik nie haa, ahaahhh new curtain, new table, new bed sheet :) aww aww thanks ibu ! :) its kinda like a boring day today, but been full it wth the make over and stuff soo not soo boring soo far. but a lil bit dissappointed -.- he coudnt make it to come and meet me -.- awww td punya lah excited giler tunggu sampai pukul 4. semangat giler nk jumpa dia, but then mady said tht they couldnt make it cuz they got something to settle, ***sight ! -.- and its killing me to see he go after all this time. and mybe they might come here tmorow ,perhaps.hoping. im start to miss atin very much right now, ouhh i miss her soo much. cant wait to meet her :) sooo i've got thngs to settle up wth mady right now, and later guys ! ouhh youuu ! i got ur text finally ;)

u take my breath away
with everything u say
i just wanna be with youu
thats my biggest wish
:)

Primary School Reunion

well its been like... ages kot ! haaa lebih kurang lah tk update blog. seriously like malas giler n tkde mood weyhh ! ntah pekena ntah pun aku tk tau. even skarang pun like malas giler je nk tulis. ahahh ! sooo had soo much fun today :) like early in the morning dah kena bangun to get prepared for driving class. ohhh best seyh drive. tk sabar nk test dgn abg jpj, ahahhah ;D then like tengah hari tu, dah prepare barang nk masak masak cuz petang tu ada reunion :) soo kteorg buat mcm portluck lah. then afta dh siap siap tu, ibu sent me to dyrah's house. then from there i met him for a while. like miss him a lot, thought. but jumpa kejup je. then afta tht kteorg pun gerak pie padang tht beside the perfection, i mean, around padang kota. at first when we arrived there, the sunny were still there, but afta like a few mins like tht, tiba tiba je hujan rintik rintik, ahahh mulut aku masin ! hahah best gila kacau kacau dorg td :D soo bla bla bla, makan, then bergambar bagai ! hahaha best giler and atlast kreorg pun bersurai ! :D but nw i feel like lost or something. i've been distracted by something tht even me myself doesnt knw wht is it about. i try to sleep just nw, but too bad, i cant. idk why. quite blur right nw. i dk wht im merepk and stuff ! like no life ! whts wrong with u nad ? -.- hmm maybe later guys since my eyes are killing me to say goodnight ! :)