Missing You :(

i miss You a lot ! :( i miss Pasuruan, i miss Az-Zahro', and even i miss Aisha Al-Hamid indeed, i miss Soraya Alydrus, i miss Fathimah Alwi Ba'agil :( and i miss a few from Holaqoh Robiah :( but indeed, i miss YOU so much :( why all of sudden, since the very 1st time i reached home, our relationship seems very far away :( i was very busy with myself despite U will always be there for me :( tak pernah jemu. why all these happened to me ? im begging U :( please don't go astray from me :( U're part of my life. i feel lost recently without U :'( but as u promise me that U'll always be there for me and yes U're ! :)

and how my fav.Ukht, Aisha Al-Hamid ? :) i hope that she''ll always be fine :) like she said, 'even we're very hard to meet each other, but insyaAllah, selalu nyambung lewat du'a k' :)' uhibbuki jiddan sis :) hai sebenarnya motif malam nih, tk boleh tidur and 1 lagi disebabkan rindu yg sangat dan agak mendalam kepada si Dia :( tkpe, sekejap je masa berlalu, n afta this, everything will be normal as usuall :)

Ya Allah Ya Rahman Ya Rahim..

Kau bahagiakanlah hati-hati kami dengan mencintai dan merinduiMu setulus hati kami..

Bila sakit tiada resah,

Bila susah tiada gelisah,

Bila diberi kuasa,kami amanah..
Hakikat bahagia dari-Mu Ya Robbul Izzati..

Klu sudi, dengar lah lagu nih, insyaAllah ketenangan pasti diraih :) selamat mencuba ! :)

cant u just stop controling my life ? what do u want from me ? u were too busy thinking about ur fellas words, but did u ever think about ur daughter's feeling ? about how she felt and how was frustrated she were with the way u treat her ? what kind of lifestyle do u want her to be ? which path do u want her to follow ? hello ! im confused ! and more even confused with what are u trying to lead me up. frankly speak, mom, this is sucks ! i just cant accept it ! lepas nih, buang raket badminton tu jauh jauh, biar puas hati semua orang. totally stress out !

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P/s : be grateful and satisfied with things that you already had, cuz Allah's watching you..

You, again !

Okay. You again :) Thank you very much for the approached, satu saat yang dah lama ku dambakan :) hati berbunga riang, bak lebah rindukan madu *okay, over bcuz im trully, passionately, deeply excited okay ! :) again tk boleh tidur lena :P *sorry ! -.- saya faham saya over, but what to do ? The happiness are very hard to appear in someones daily life, and thanks to Allah, Alhamdulillah, the happiness are by my side tonight :) toodles peeps ! kiss kiss :* hamboi hamboi, malam nih pulak yang over yeee, HAHA :P

Kamu

Aku tak boleh tidur malam bila berjumpa dan melihat mu..
Senyuman mu, suara mu, dan segala galanya tentang mu menghantuiku..
Berjubah putih tulang, dan berkopiah yang berwarna putih..
Sungguh, fotomu yang berjubah putih, berkopiah putih,
berridho'kan shawl yg berwarna hijau daun pisang pemberian dari Syaikhuna, Al-Habib Umar BSA serta siwak yg diberikan, ku tatap hampir setiap masa.. gila bukan ? Wa keff haaza ?

Kau.. sungguh hebat aura dirimu..
Dan tanpa berlengah telah berjaya menarik perhatian ku..
Andai 1 masa nanti kau dapat menempatkan diri di Darul Musthofa,
adakah kita bakal bertemu lagi.. ?

"Rahsia kan lah cintamu jika kau ingin redho kami" - SyeikhBuBakarBinSalim

An Nur

Ya Allah, please don't let me having that moment this month.
I wish to finish all my nights there.
The place where I can get the truth of peaceful.
The place where I could meet my Zauj there one day, hopefully.
And the place where there is full of your blessings there.
When I look at their face, i could feel the peaceful.
Could I be a part of them and a part of you ?
Zauji.. anta habibi :)

"I'm sorry, I did not mean to hurt my little girl
It's beyond me, I cannot carry the weight of the heavy world
So goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight

Goodnight, hope that things work out all right"

Wish that 1 day he'll send me this song, but when ? No one knows, except Allah..

Cannot sleep

Tak boleh tidur -.- ye, tu lah title malam nih -- why ? no idea. terkedip kedip mata nih. dah try sepuasnya nk tidur, macam macam dah buat, puas lahh buat macam macam, pun tk boleh jugak nk lelap -.- maybe sebab dah selalu sgt kot tidur lambat :/ salah siapa ? tepuk dada tnya iman :) dalam mata tengah terkedip kedip td tuh, padahal hati nih dah nekad tknk online, just tk boleh tidur punya pasal, nk tknk online lah. haaa bila online, tercetus lah blog utk hari nih :) dalam diam diam td, tbe2 je memori lama menggamit -.- sumpah aku tk selesa lah dgn benda2 nih semua ! -.- n i feel like crying :( banyak sgt kot dosa aku slama nih smpai jd cmnihh -.- Allahumma firlana zunubana :( i will survive ! :) insyaAllah, O Allah, please guide me :)

Retlessness

Its already 11.27 PM. Terasa mcm restlessness lah. Kenapa eh ? Ntah, no idea. Hati sendiri pun tk tau nk cakap apa lg. Hidup, hidup dan hidup. Diam tk diam, dah seminggu kita semua berpuasa kan ? And seiring masa berjalan, dah pun masuk bulan 8, kejap je masa nih berlalu. What am i talking about ? It takes a long time for me to finish up this blog -.- entah apa yg ada dlm fikiran ni pun akku tk tahu. Tp macam ada sesuatu yg tk beres, and sesuatu tu, belum jelas and sukar di tafsir. Bayangnya pun belum jelas.. Well, its already 12.30 PM :( Alamat kalau tdo lambat nih, besok susah lah nk bngun -- so the next update will be coming ur way, nightnight fellas ;)

"ku tak ingin lagi
menunggu menanti
harapan tuk hidup kan cinta yg telah mati
ku tak ingin cuba
ku telah kecewa
lelah ku bersenyum, lelah ku bersandiwara"

Just love this quotes :) agak menyentuh sikit. hmm agak lama tk update blog kan ? er got nothing to update lah. life was good so far. lupa nak update on 24th July. Well, Happy Birthday to me :P im 19teen now :P dah besar ke eh ? err macam tk, tp mcm yee :P well Nad, u're a grown up girl and try to be like a grown up girl :) buang semua sikap keanak-anakan kau tuu, and cuba berfikir secara matang, and never do something before you think. Think 1st before you do.. and to you, thanks for the wish :) i've been waiting for it like ages :P even it was late, "better late than never".. and about the promises, i'll claim back once i touch down to Surabaya :P well, cakap kat sini pun, kau takkan tahu kan :) but janji tetap janji, so you must fuifill it :) And to Ukht, ana musytaq jiddan ilaik ! <3