Falling :)

erghhhh ! makin nk bla makin menjadi jadi je semua, stress mcm org giler kot ! hishhh ! rse cm nk maki hamun je semua org -.- stress tahap bangang aa ! -.- sorang memekak kt sini, sorang memekak kt sne, perghh blodyhell everyone ! -.- finally ! all the love tht i've kept for u all these while had turned to be the hatest thing in my life tht i hate it so strong. i cnt accept the fact tht all these while, i've fallen for the wrong guy which is a COWARD ! damn hell. aku silap sayang dkt kau. all the things tht happened to me was very pathetic. only mady's knows how i looked tht night.

well, im leaving by tomorow. flight will be on 2.00 pm. im gona miss malaysia so much :( n im gona miss all my friends. there will be no hangout after this friends ! tk tau bila lg bole berjumpa. haihh rse mcm sedih sgt. semua yg ada dlm hati ni sgt menyesak dada aku :( i cannot stand wth all these. God, im not strong like everyone thought. im week, very week. well goodbye Malaysia. im away for 3 months n will be return bck on 3rd august 2010 n flight will be on 12.55 am at KLIA LCCT :)

ahahhh. ada this story sikit :) mady n i were hangout last 2 nights n we were meeting adam n his friends :) well its not bad hanging around wth them bt instead soo damn funny ! :D they were like kelakar gler babi n comel jee :) n at some moment, we met adam's father which uncle norman n he was very cool tht time ! uncle mmg best lah, n hoping to meet u again uncle :) we talk n talk like until 2 am in the morning dkt mamak :D n after tht, mady n i were planing to balik since mate masing2 pun mcm dah tk terangkat je, haahaha. n finally, kteorg pun balik bt bfore tht, somethng happened which is........ only me n u know <3 :) toddles guys ! :D

U know u love me

okay. just got back from hanging around wth dyrah, esya, izzi n danish. err jap. danish lepak skali ke ? err lepak jugak kot. just dia dtg lewat sikit dr kteorg, hehh. so now aku nk buat confession kt izzi, that.. izzi, kau dgn danish mmg sweet gler babi :) teringat aku time time aku dgn dia suatu ketika dahulu, haha okay cut the crap ! -.- back to the main topic. well, the four of us were having our lunch at Manhattan Fish Market which located at Cineleisure Damansara. but then kteorg lepak sat je. cuz esya kena gerak awal n kena ada kt rumah by 5.

so selama kteorg lepak start dr pukul 2.30 smpai ke 5.30 ptg tu, mcm2 yg kteorg dah borak n gelak2. wahh indah nyer lah. after this, no more lepak2 cuz masing masing mcm busy giler study. n aku lg lah, perghh jauh nun ke sana 2 jam perjalanan klu nk p ke sana -.- n for sure, klu dorg lepak aku tkde -.- sad sad n sad :( 4 days left derr. aduhh mcm tragis je nk pg nih wehhh. haha. jap2, bukan nk kte aku pg tk ikhlas, but rse mcm im going to go away n away from my mummy n daddy :( n im gonna be a homesick :( especially to my bedroom :(

dah lah, mcm malas lah nk ckp pasal nih. bikin hati jd ribut -.- btw, i miss him a lot. i just met him just now n rindu dia kot :( im leaving ! dnt u want to say somethng bfore i go ? i'll be gone :( u knw wht, somehow, i could feel tht thng will happen at some point, but for a mean time, i wish it would never happen :( urghhhh ! why why n why all these thngs keep playing in my mind ? its make me suffer a lot ! duhh u knw why ? bcuz u know i love u

All i ever wanted

all i ever wanted, all i ever wanted was a simple way to get over you, all i ever wanted, all i ever wanted was an in-between to escape this desperate scene, where every law reveals the truth, baby cause all i ever wanted, all i ever wanted was YOU ! OMG OMG ! belum pg indon lg, alih2 dah tempah ticket nk balik, wuhaaaaaa, haha sumpah rse cm excited giler derrr ! will be back on 3rd August of 2010 :) n the excited part !! nnt balik dgn tuuuttttttttttttttttttt heeeeeee suka suka ! :D

im leaving soon ! -.- hurmmmm -.- sedih sedih dan sedih. mcm2 peasaan yg melanda diri aku nih :( was it a right decision tht i've made ? urghhh ! i dnt want to talk about it. just waiting for the very right time to come. anyway, i just got the time to update my blog :) mcm biasa, busy dgn keje je, bt next week aku dah nk stop dah pun :( duhh i'll will miss Hilyah's load ! :( 1 month n 10 days have tought me a lot on how to...u knw, berdiri di atas kaki sendiri :) n i've learned something at Hilyah tht maybe i couldnt get it from anywhere :)

well i've got nothing to say actually. bt somethng is distracting me. aku tk tau siape punya angkara yg suka sgt nk buat onar dlm kehidupan org. well doe, get a life lah ! klu kau betul2 ank jantan, jgn jd bacul pengecut lah doe ! nk kutuk, kutuk depan2, sumpah tkda telur doe kau ! tunjuk lah sikit muka kau tuh, handsome sgt ke doe ? layak sgt ke nk dgelar HOT ? erghh bg aku, mybe tk kot, tkkan smpai pd gelaran tu, jauh skali nk dibanding kan dgn tuan punya perangai n klu kau perempuan skali pun, yg ada maruah diri, tnjuk kan lah diri kau kt aku, aku nk tgk, lawa sgt ke kau smpai nk kutuk2 aku ? well im hoping n praying to whom who've been insulting me by calling me with tht "name", hope Allah will bless u n ur family, n hope Allah will forgive all ur sins tht u've done to people :) God bless u always buddy :)

haaa, about my leaving ! seriously aku tk buat langsung preparation :D n when people keep asking, haaa aku angguk je lah, yeaaa udah packing brg nyerrr ! haha padahal tk pun. sikit pun tk. bru letak 1 seluar, hahah :D
derr, benda aku merepek doe ? supposed to luah kan ape yg aku tngah memendam skarang nih, but then tersasar entah merepek meraban ntah ke mane. well, IMISSHIM ! haaaaaa goodnight :)