Leaving

finally ! ibu dah memaafkan aku :) or maybe ibu tk declare pun tht thng as gaduh gaduh, mybe sebab ibu malas nk layan perangai anak perempuan dia yg mcm chilldish, tk matang n ego niie :) ehehh well whtever it is, syukur yg tk terhingga aku :) bt then ada 1 masalah ni pulak :( haihh lepas satu satu masalah yg dtg. bt then, its not a big deal for me, bt pity ibu :( she have to facing tht problem alone :( bt ibu, i'll always be here for u, no matter wht happen :) iloveyou ibu :) apehal korang ? elehhh nmpak je aku ni keras cm dawai besi, tp hati aku ni lembut baii, tk rela aku org buat mcm2 kt ibu aku :)

well actually i got nothing to say. just nk update for the last time since i'll fly to Surabaya esok :( wuahhh ! gona miss Malaysia A LOT ! serious doe, tkde tempat mne yg lg best melainkan Malayasia. (tk habis habis ulang ayat same -__-) ehehhh lantak lah situ. will be returning bck on ths 3rd August. soo hari pun dah lewat malam, n barang pun bnyk yg tk pack lg (tu lah, suka sgt buat kerja last last minute -______-, biar lah, hobi aku) n mata pun sebenarnye dah tk terangkat nih. n bnyk lg nk kena settle nih. so will meet u guys soon ! the next update will be coming ur way. so goodnight everyone ! have a good sleep n sugardreams everyone ! Toodles ! :)

whooaahh ! smalam ada lah hari yg terbaik bg aku which was ; i fought wth my mum :( gosh ! i told u, all these kind of tnhgs must happen, if tk aku yg cari pasal pun, org lain punya pasal pun aku jugak yg kena -___- sedih ohh klu gaduh gaduh cmni, tragis ! sampai laptop pun kena bannded smalam dgn ibu :( meracau racau aku tk dpt online punya pasal smalam, dah lah esok nk balik Surabaya, ishh ! sgt tragis :( well, utk pengetahuan, aku adalah seorang yg EGO tinggi bak melangit (err ade 'bak' ke ? whtever laa), bab bab nk mintk maaf ni mmg sgt payah bg aku -____-
aku bukan org yg suka mintk maaf -___- well thts my weekness ! ehehh. then if aku buat hal dgn ibu, for sure for sure laa aku kena mintk maaf, n thts pathetic for me :( i hate doing tht ! bcuz i hate dramatic situation ! nnt klu bila nk mintk2 maaf ni bagai, mst ada touching touching emo emo, ishhhh ! tk kuasa aku oii ! -________-

then trpaksa lah aku ni berkurung dlm bilik, tnpa keluar mkn, minum n mcm2, nasib ada novel phone, peneman di kala kesedihan, n thanks to naqiu by lending me ur ears :) u're trully kind n somehow i can feel the spirit is bleeding in my body :) thanks naq ! :) n last night, i was thinking to appologize ibu, bt then, hari dah semakin larut, so aku just batal kan niat aku n wait for the next morning which is, this morning, bt ntah mcm mne ntah, aku tr overslept n sedar2 dah pukul 9 n dpt text from ibu 'Ibu di luar. Tunggu amir balik jam 1145' dangg baby ! wht does tht means ? does ibu prepared to talk to me ? cuz slalu nya, ibu tk kan brckp dgn aku smpai aku mintk maaf dkt dia ;| well i got no cmnt about tht. hoping tht everythng will be fine soon cuz aku dah nk balik Surabaya nihh, tknk laa karang ibu abaikan aku :( mampus aku nk study ape kt sne klu tkda bless dr ibu :(

haihh, im going to fly to Surabaya by tomorow :O tknk balik bole tk ? cinfirm2 rindu malaysia seyhh :( tknk balik tknk balik ! haha. tk bole jd nih, kena balik jugak, nak jd ape kau tknk blaja ? ehehhh :D tkpe la, 3rd August dah nk balik :) for 2 months pulak tu, sempoi ! :D n awak ! bakalan rindu awak nnt :) jaga diri yeah ! :) well, the next update will be coming ur way, toodles ! :)

You are ..

ish ! hari ni rase cm nk emo ! nk marah je kt semua org -___- im so sad :( tk dpt nk attend wedding kt Klang hari ni, sumpah cam bosan giler ! tk tau nk buat ape doe hari ni. bosan ! 2 days left n i will fly to Surabaya back :( im gona miss Malaysia, tanah tumpah darah ku ! :( tu lah, dlu nk sgt pg jauh jauh, skarang, sndiri tanggung lah ! -__-
last night layan lagu stay by miley cyrus, wuhh ! sumpah emo giler kot ! haha. dgr sampai trlelap, sedar sedar je phone dah mati sbb batery kong ! :D haishhh sye sgt stress skarang ! sye emo dgn semua org ! sbb pg2 lg ada yg dah rosak kan mood sye. jd di blog ini lah tmpat aku nk melantun kan ape yg dah trpendam giler babi dlm hati nih -__-

bak kate mady, bbe, just put urself in tht girl situation, after all, when she find out wth who r u seeing, mst dia marah kan ? soo just let it be. dnt put any hopes otherwise, u yg sakit' huuuu. bermakna giler kate2 dia nih -__-
bt nk buat mcm mne, dah TER ......... i mean, its already happened for a long time, bt just fikir tk rapat, so i dnt thnk so 'tht thng' will happen. erghhh CUT THE CRAP ! tht thing will never ever happen ! kau kena terima hakikat nad ! nothing is impossible ! kalau dlu kau boleh buat, kenapa skarang kau tk boleh ? kau kena kuat nad ! :)

Emo

Well it's good to hear your voice
I hope you're doing fine
And if you ever wonder
I'm lonely here tonight
Lost here in this moment
Time keeps slipping by
If I could have just one wish
I'd have you by my side

falling for him

Sorry DUDE ! -.-

wuhuuu ! perghh otak mcm dah bengong je skarang nih. bt just now was superb ! lepak for the last time dgn naq cuz he's going back to kelantan, membawa hati yg lara :( haihh naq, sedih lak aku, jauh nar membawa hati tu. well aku rase cm nk berubah aa skarang, nk jd budak baik. boleh en ? bt then td aku cm dah buat org sakit hati aa -.- seriously, im not happy at all, bt its my bad by doing tht to him. haihhh pasal kisah lame punya pasal, trbawak bawak smpai kena kt org yg tk spatutnya kena -.- SORRY YOU ! didnt meant to hurt you --. dah aa, what past is past, lets start wth somehting new :)

actually just came bck from alsafa n rasta, lepak2 dgn budak2 ni semua, best giler aa. sampai kepala pun dah naik ting tong dah, shisha punya pasal, hahah :D bt sumpah best aa ! lepas ni sure tk tau bila lg bole keluar ramai2 cmni. bt yg paling best ! my uncle was there ! ahahah uncle yg paling sporting ! youuu, best ouhh you ada td ! rse cm tknk bg u balik lak, rse cm nk kepit 24 jam dgr n tgk u yg mcm karut, giler2 tp best ! :D haihhh next week nk balik indon daaahhh, oh tidak ! -.- will miss malaysia n the surrounding so much ! -.- right, tknk ckp sgt pasl bnda ni, bt then aku mcm dah jd kejam aa td. aku buat org sakit hati dgn aku -.- erghhhh knape lah knape, klu dah tau tk suka, u shouldnt accept him nad. kan skarang, perasaan guilty yg membara. bt then, bak kate uncle trsayang, chehhh ! :D better terus terang dr terus terusan menipu perasaan yg ntah pape tuh. so no hurt feeling ! i have to -- sorry dude !

so got nothing to talk here. i guess i better get some rest. so goodnight ! :)

Restless

errr malam ni rase cm tk sihat aa, rse cm nk demam, rse cm tk sedap badan sgtsgt -.- penyakit aku dtg lg -.- errkkk nk pengsannnn ******** stresss, dilemma, paranoid, phobia -.- bleaghhhhhhh bosannn lah mcm nihhhh haihhh. haaa ni lah dia siti nadia, tk habis habis nk mengeluh, nk merungut. ape nk jd dgn kau ni nadia nadiaaaa. whtever it is, we just wait n see wht is gona happen. ihh tk larat dah, goodnight

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Guyss ! im home ! hehe :D perghh giler rindu malaysia tanah tumpah darah ku ! sebaik sahaja tayar kapal terbang mencecah bumi malaysia, aku rse cm nk teriak sepuas hati je der, mcm batak giler je doe ! haha :D haha padahal ni bukan official lg cuti, just emergency leave cuz nk kena settle kan visa, then 22th june baru pulang :) n somehow, i already miss Sunniyah Salafiyah :( ape lah budak2 tu tngah buat skarang enn especially Aesya al hamid :*) perghh senang bangat gue sme ini anak, keren gitu :) dah aa esok subject kak aesya, ishhh asyik miss je subject dia :| whtever aa, as long as nnt balik jumpa kak aesya lg :) idola ku, haha :D

well, so far surabaya was superb ! :) i mean, mmg best giler aa kt sne. cnt describe laa experience kt sne tu mcm mne :) eleh, ni bru 3 minggu kt sne, belum setahun lg, derr masuk air aku nnt, haha :D so theres nothing much la nk cite pasal class, everythng goes on smoothly so far, alhamdulillah :) n even im learning arabic day by day kot ! ra'seyy rek ! tk lme lg, ana tatakallamu billughatul arabiyyah ;) ya salammmm ! hehhh suka suka :D okay fine, dah masuk air sikit dah aku nih -.-

ya wess, ntar di terusin lg yaa. now, aku tngah dilemma gler babi. bak kate org cerdik pandai, peribahasa jadah sume lah kan, di luah mati mak, di telan mati bapak. aku tk faham aa dgn dunia skarang nih. penat doe mcm nih. aku tk faham aa manusia nih. sumpek ana rek ! pokok nya, hati dgn perasaan tu tk bole buat main. once dah heartbroken, mmg susah giler nk recover. takes time to heal pulak tu. dah lah lme, pastu terseksa mcm org bodoh, ish Allah je lah yg tau ape rse mase tu. seriously, mcm tkda mood dah skarang nk layan cintan2 bodoh ni sume, buat sakit hati 1, pastu kena tipu hidup2 pulak tu, ishh mne dia letak hati dia huh ? tk brperasaan, sanggup buat org mcm tu. then now nk claim yg mcm tu pulak ? bullshit giler ! nw idk wht r u trying to play wth me. tk puas2 kot nk main kan hati org kan ? well, nvermind then, terus kan lah bermain dgn alam ciptaan u tu, sampai hati u dah betul2 puas. klu betu lah ape yg dah di cakap tu, prove me then ! -.-