Life will never be the same, life is changging

semakin lama aku tk tahan lah gak kan duduk sini. well mana2 duduk pun same je. tkyah nk ckp problem tk prnah dtg, problem hari hari dtg bergolek, just pandai2 korg je nk handle mcm mne. ye aku mengaku, skarang nih aku dilanda musibah ! aku paling benci kena bebel. well thts normal lah. siapa yg suka kena bebel kan ? tp klu aku kena bebel ni tahap dia lain mcm sikit. walaupun salah aku tk sebesar mne n bole je settle sbnarnyer, tkyah pening2 kepala nk kecoh2, smpai sakit dada nk membebel. ntah lah. kadang kadang aku pun 1, suka buat org bebel. well dua2 pun sama je sbnarnya.

im counting the days of going back to Indonesia. another 25 days left. bak kate kawan2, still lme lg tu. yee, mmg lama, tp aku rse mcm tk sbr2 nk keluar dr rumah nih. well aku sakit. aku sedih. n somehow i really feel like how pathetic i am for being here, in this house. maybe bila 1 masa nnt, bila aku dah tkde, or jauh dr rumah nih, bru masing2 nk cari aku balik kot ? yeke ? dah lah, jgn nk mimpi. org yg selalu sakit kan hati org jgn harap nk dpt tempat kt hati orang tu. all these time, i know, im not being a good daughter, even a good sister. all this time i was being such a fucking shittt ! idk why my life isnt good as my fellas life. okay aku faham, setiap yg hidup mst ada masalh masing2 en. so tk payah nk ckp semua org hidup happy sgt lahh.

okay, anytime from now, bapak akan dtg marah aku :) well thts cool to know right ? :) cool ! just tunggu masa nk kena je lepas nih :) well, all the best nad :) just remember tht thngs happened wth reason :) anythng, if u need somethng to burst out wht u feel, lets it burst out here. dnt trust anyone than urself :)